After getting on not badly last night with the forms, I am now incredibly stressed again. When questioned innocently by the person I asked for references "Fine, yes. But what is it you actually want to do?" I panicked!
I'm sure I know, but I now realize that I have no idea how to explain it to someone else. This is it. This is the moment when I get found out. I am under qualifed for a Phd, and no-one will want me.