Its my own fault. I should never have allowed myself to cheer up, because now I am going to cry.
I need to find another $140 and whatever it will cost me to get to London to sit a stuipid test. And, worse, I might not even have to bother because the score from it might be to late for me to bother continuing my application. This is so awful. I am such a failure, I can't even get an application right.